Anxiety … What a Stupid Emotion
My bouts of anxiety come in random waves. I'm having a cute moment right now. Cute in the sarcastic way, clearly. The one thing I can do to alleviate the anxious feelings is to create a structure or goals. My 35th birthday is coming up (barf), so I think I should create 3 big goals I want to achieve. Partially, to assist in reducing these nagging thoughts and partially because what else am I doing. All that to say, I'm going to document them here for record. In one year, or 6 months, or 10 weeks, I'll look back and see how far I've come... hopefully, no definitely, we've got to start on a positive note here! (also, note to self, running a half marathon doesn't count, you've already signed up for that).
Write Daily - You, meaning me, said you were going to write on a regular basis. Stick to it! What was the plan? Find a journal prompt - write about it, find a photo to go with it. DO THAT! Every day - doesn't need to be long, or profound, or honestly even have meaning, but you have to write. Document your day, thoughts, events, doesn't matter, but you have to write!
Lose Weight. The ideal goal is to eat between 1200-1500 calories per day. Realistically, that's not going to happen. So, the goal to start is 1500-1700 calories per day through the 10k. (June 3rd) After the 10k , lower the goal. Follow the 10k running plan. Run 3x per week - work out 2x per week. After the 10k, you'll probably want to take some of a running break so switch to run 2x a week and work out the other 3. Once you get to August the half marathon training will take place, which will change up the routine. I'm not going to say what weight I want to be at, because honestly it's more about how the clothes fit. At the end of the day you will know when you've lost the weight.
Do an Activity Every Saturday and Sunday. This can be dinner with friends, dates, solo adventures; but you have to get out and do something. Go to more museums, seek out parks, maybe join a club (?) but get out and do something!
Honestly, writing this out has already improved my anxiety. I can too easily fall in to the trap of laziness, which turns in to negative thoughts, so I need to create structure for myself. Now, time to hold yourself accounta
